blog: let’s talk about pumpkin baby

Let’s talk about pumpkin for a minute. Well, not pumpkin, but you’ll get the point. Hopefully. 

I’m ambivalent about pumpkin. I wouldn’t go so far as to say that I dislike it, but I’m never going to have it in my fridge without good reason. But I’ve had partners who love the stuff, so I’ve learned a few ways to cook it. I make a killer maple-glazed roast pumpkin, for instance, which tastes even better turned into a soup.

While I get a bit of enjoyment from eating pumpkin when I’ve prepared it in certain ways, I’m mostly just happy to see the people I’m cooking for feeling satisfied because of my food. Sometimes I just make it because it’s been a while and I have someone asking me to make my pumpkin soup again.

But every now and then I’ll actually get a craving for pumpkin out of the blue. Sometimes if I see pumpkin and feta risotto on a restaurant menu or spot a pumpkin scone at a café, I’ll think, “Ah yeah, I could really go for one of those!” So occasionally I indulge, and then I’m good for ages. 

And if you don’t understand anything of this, you haven’t been paying attention. 😁

poem: now

Whisper words into my ear
Tell me the lies I want to hear
Tell me you care
That you’ll always be there
A fabrication so insane
When I don’t even know your name
But I need it
Need to feel it
Need to believe it now

Hold me in your arms of steel
Make me love how you make me feel
This is the only comfort I’m going to get
Tomorrow as soon enough to repent
But I need it
Need to feel it
Need to believe it now

Let me substitute sex for love
Let me claim passion as my drug
Let me pretend them someone else
Let me fuck the demons from myself
And if I should close my eyes
Don’t ask me why, just let me cry
Because I need it
Need to feel it
Need to believe it
Now.