poem: now

Whisper words into my ear
Tell me the lies I want to hear
Tell me you care
That you’ll always be there
A fabrication so insane
When I don’t even know your name
But I need it
Need to feel it
Need to believe it now

Hold me in your arms of steel
Make me love how you make me feel
This is the only comfort I’m going to get
Tomorrow as soon enough to repent
But I need it
Need to feel it
Need to believe it now

Let me substitute sex for love
Let me claim passion as my drug
Let me pretend them someone else
Let me fuck the demons from myself
And if I should close my eyes
Don’t ask me why, just let me cry
Because I need it
Need to feel it
Need to believe it
Now.

poem: for jim

Sweet –
You burn…
I reach out in the dark
Seeking,
Needing
Release for just this once
I climb out of myself
And drown and amber glass

Numb –
You love,
You teach me how to be
A void,
A place,
I don’t have to feel alive…
I don’t have to feel a thing,
As I drown pretence away

Hurt,
You heal;
Stay with me tonight.
Aching,
Craving,
This void I cannot fill –
It all just goes away;
Wash over me tonight.