poem: stages of survival

The mind says,
“This is too much!”

The body says,
“This is too much – I cannot endure.”

The heart says,
This is too much – I cannot endure, this will kill me!”

The will says,
“This is too much -I cannot endure;
This will kill me, I have to fight this!

So the will bolsters the heart
The heart rallies the body
And the motion of the body calms the mind.
Confidence soars;
Surely this too will pass.
The pricks are kicked against, 
The salmon swim upstream,
The good fight is fought, 
The trucks keep on trucking. 

Until one day you realize: 
You’re still standing on ground zero, 
You never actually left square one. 
No one is coming for you. 
Nothing will ever change. 
No effort made will ever matter. 

Then the will says, 
“I give up.” 
The heart says, 
“Just let me die.” 
The body says, 
What’s one more burden?” 
And the mind – 
The mind is numb, and says nothing.