Or I find myself in circumstances I don’t fully understand.

Or perhaps things are happening in the background, and I don’t even know.

Then suddenly, something happens that would not have happened if those other things had not happened, something Good.

And I say, “I am Blessed!”

But – blessed by Who?

Am I really even Blessed?

These are the questions that form the basis of the God/no God argument. These are the questions I wrestle with in my soul.

You say, “Of course there is a God! How can you not see all the good He has done for you?

Another might say, “There is no God – It is a series of unrelated circumstances to which you are applying a religious bias.”

Still another might say, “There is a God, but he/she does not micromanage. These events were brought about through your own actions and through coincidence.”

And I say, simply, that I do not know.

Countless happenings day in day out go unnoticed, unremarked upon, because they do not connect to any Good Things. So it is possible that things just happen.

And countless things happen which lead to Very Bad Things too, and cause people to wonder if there is a benevolent Someone In Charge, what use could they have for suffering? So it is possible that there is Nobody In Charge, and that things just happen.

But what I do know is that seeing the butterfly effect of a word spoken, a touch granted, a thoughtful gesture made –

Watching all of those puzzle pieces fall into place with perfect hindsight vision to culminate into the occurrence of a Good Thing,

Makes me feel that there is reason and rhyme to the universe, makes me feel calm, connected to life, safe as if I’m not alone in the wind.

It reassures me that though bad things happen, good things will happen too in time. That is the Faith I hold in my heart.

To dedicate my life to wholehearted and unconditional love, to send out good into the universe, and hope to be part of someone else’s Good Thing.

And to accept love’s ebb and flow into my life, to have patience and endure through the Bad Things, knowing unequivocally this truth –

That Good Things will come once more in their own time.