Lately I’ve been trying to organise my music collection – no small task since it’s scattered across my computer, my laptop, my iPhone, and my iPod, plus several boxes of CDs to rip!  But I have made some progress at least.

In the process I’ve found some Christian praise & worship songs I downloaded ages ago and I’ve been listening to them in the mornings on my way to work. I find the music really uplifting, and puts me in the right frame of mind to begin my day.  I even found myself praying this morning (something I haven’t done properly in I don’t even know how long) that I would have a productive day and be open to whatever challenges might come.

I was surprised to find that I still enjoy listening to these songs.  But even though I might not think of myself as being Christian in the strictest sense of the word, I still believe in God as a divine creative force out there looking after me and the rest of the universe.  I respect the teachings of Christ, and while I am unsure what I believe about Jesus, the concepts of sacrifice and redemption, of death, burial and rebirth – common themes in worship music – still make perfect sense.

Maybe one day I will find myself in a church again.  Maybe I have just been hurt so badly that I can’t do the “church thing” right now.  But maybe there is still a place for me in the structure somewhere.  For now though, I think it’s a good thing that I’m praying and pondering God again, and I feel like I need to stay open to that and see where that leads me.